i am emptee mandeep
now
eie aum total devi ke adhe
पूर्ण आधे
i have kept total silence so far
though I am not willing to write this
butt (mooladhara chakra) emptee
sum_ow keep persisting
this was or is emptee time coming
7 _ears ago from todae mandeep was unsure what was going on inside her gut (though this calcifieing of fullness has started long ago in 2016)
after witnessing 3 phisical deaths sumthing hol feeling like tornado in pain was churning in brain undiagnosed after few attempts
after few _ears i did realised that i had brain tumour
(right half got paral_sed left half keep going)
i did started stuttering and was forgetting present memori and was not able to talk to anione
i did started treating basic s_mptoms inside home’ kitchen and kept going with what i was doing inside home with every dae experimenting with gut this or that seems to be working after 4_ears living without food water and sleep
(i was living as single self separated from everione) as i have no monee for expensive treatments so keep going what meditating was teaching
mandeep bi keeping inside still
at one time mandeep accidentlee catch covid
that dae was again living-d_ing moment
though sum_ow what i was taking inside home’ kitchen to cure keep working and then never happened again
and i have to keep working (part time) in that condition to let sum monee keep coming in for dailee expenses
7 _ears took to cure brain tumour at home with total meditation of devi’ shakti blocking outside inputs
in between those times 3 secret cult mobs tri to kill mandeep
in one attempt gut swallowed poison though her emptee senses let her found and cured herself and in others she surpassed death
she became total adhe with her inside breathing experience reached within to invoke presence of devi’ total shakti
here was sumthing inside unconscious which was kept shaking mandeep
while in 3rd mob’ killing attempt she realised she was adopted though not at goodvill
she was forced with drop into other mother’s lap
while experiencing all these inside emptee breathing mandeep’ childhood memories became clear (for she did remember all happenings from childhood)
this thought never arise before
that how come present parent’s 2 daughters never got hurt and this mandeep has remembered so many things
so outcome show realisation that present parent’s also killing mandeep from dae 1 she entered their home
( since childhood her wrist has a cut, she had back spine burnt which was done deliberatelee, she did left alone in ruined emptee house far away in a village and sum more terrible knowings)
where ever mandeep has to live for shelter, she had witnessed worst of gundagardi of hu1man0ti inside each home
now this mandeep has realised that total devi’ shakti has curated an invincible adhe
हम कहते है खुद से
जो भी मिला कर्मो से खिला
तुम्हारे भगवान् को हुया नहीं गिला
तभी तो देखने आया भरपूर या ख़ाली
सिलसिला
mandala lit 